It has been a while since my blog has seen a fresh post, but I wanted to take the time to officially update everyone on my Summer and the last few days of my life. This summer I have finished radiation at MD Anderson, gone on multiple mission trips with my church, vacationed in Seaside, Florida with my family, and made the most of my last summer at home before moving into Baylor in two short days.
I wanted to let you all know that the last few days have brought a good amount of stress. On Saturday night I found a swollen lymph node in my neck, similar to the ones at the beginning of my original diagnosis this past January. This lymph node is located behind my left clavicle and is now swollen to the size of 1.5 centimeters. This same node site was the only remaining active site after my previous scans following my second round of chemotherapy in March.
I traveled to Houston on Monday afternoon to have an appointment with my doctor. During the appointment, Dr. Dreyer took a look at the node and confirmed the urgency of completing a PET scan as soon as possible. This morning I woke up early to have my scan and we had the results back by late this afternoon. The spot in my neck is lighting up as active cancer, but it’s the only spot in my entire body that is, so that’s really good news. As far as the treatment process goes, we are not totally sure what the next steps will be. I will have a biopsy of that node sometime this Friday, meaning we will be taking it out completely. I am still planning to move into my dorm at the end of this week and start my classes on Monday. While this news is both hard to understand and seems to have happened rather quickly, I am making it. I have had a few individuals ask me how I am feeling both mentally and emotionally. I would answer that by saying I’m not sure the news has completely become a reality in my mind yet, but I am approaching this diagnosis the same way I handled it in January. This is just another speed bump in the road and another challenge that the Lord has placed before me.
Today, in the middle of my scan I had a moment. I’ve said in a previous post that I often get an overwhelming feeling of the Lord’s presence while laying on the scan table and sitting in silence as this machine takes a complete and vulnerable picture of activity happening inside my body. Today, the phrase that seemed to have been whispered or placed in my mind as my body inched along pause after pause was, “This is not the end, the first time was too easy. You were made for more.” I know this is the Lord’s way of telling me that my job is not done and this chapter is not over.
I am headed into the next few days with a positive attitude and a plead for prayers. I know that God holds all the answers to my current situation. Every hour brings something new and I appreciate the love and support.
Always be kind and take a moment to enjoy where you are.